“Mike! How about her?” I point to a middle-aged woman sitting by herself on a grassy area in Baltimore’s inner harbor. “More than anything she looks distracted.” Mike replies as we notice how busy she was re-doing her makeup.
It is a Sunday afternoon and we are in the middle of street evangelization, approaching people to share how God has worked in our lives, to pray for them and to share the good news of God’s love. I stop and sense the Holy Spirit calling me to her and I turn to Mike “Ok, let us at least tell her she is beautiful.” I walk without fear into what would be the last and deepest evangelization experience of the day, one that would end with a kiss.
This past Saturday, I attended the Signs and Wonders Conference for the first time. Honestly, I am still trying to comprehend all that happened that day but I suppose some things are meant to remain a mystery. As some of you might know, I recently went on a mission’s trip to Kolkata, India. It was an incredible experience and I returned feeling very rejuvenated in my prayer life. After about a week of feeling very close to the Lord, I went into a period of spiritual dryness. I felt very isolated from the Lord and many of my past insecurities and fears were constantly haunting me. As silly as it may sound, I felt as if the Lord wasn’t hearing my prayers. Unfortunately, instead of praying more frequently and more fervently, I lost all motivation to pray and started going whole days without conversing with the Lord. My prayer became a plea that I would want to be holy and choose Him over the world and myself, but I felt like I wasn’t being honest in my prayer because I wasn’t making any concrete efforts to change.
Thank you God for this conference!